Friday, January 12, 2018

11:47

MENGAPA KITA SELALU MERASA KEKURANGAN?


*Disclaimer:
Sebelumnya, ini adalah pengalaman pribadi dan buah pikiran saya. Saya tidak memaksa siapapun untuk setuju bahkan harus merubah dirinya. Apabila sampai kepada demikian, saya sangat bersyukur jika post ini membantu.

Di umur sekarang ini (23th) kadang-kadang aku merasa kalau pikiran semakin matang. Ya matang dalam menghadapi dunia dan segala kegilaannya. Kalau soal teliti dan sebagainya yah, masih dibilang kurang lah. Mau dibilang dewasa juga rasanya yah masih 1/4 deh. Tapi, bersyukur banget dengan ada kamar mandi, Transjakarta dan sudah punya kamar sendiri, jadi bisa merenungi kehidupan ini, sambil ngomong sendiri sama Tuhan. Hehe. Yes, saya suka ngomong sendiri, sampai teman dan Mami suka omelin. 

Sampai suatu malam, tiba-tiba pikiran yang lagi galau ini menemukan setitik pencerahan. Lagi ngomel-ngomelnya, ngedumel-ngedumelnya sama Tuhan "kenapa sih Tuhan, aku kok gak bisa kayak mereka? Aku pengen kayak mereka. Aku mau ini mau itu mau kayak ini mau kayak itu." (kan? masih 1/4 dewasa) terus Tuhan bilang : "Kamu bisanya ngedumel terus. Selama ini, pernah gak lihat yang sudah Aku lakukan untuk kamu?" Sepertinya Tuhan udah panas kupingnya dengerin aku ngomel terus kayak gitu. Jadi dijawab deh akhirnya (*berarti kalau mau dijawab ngedumel aja terus ;p gak deng.) JENG JENG!! Tuhan kan kalo jawab gitu yah, *jleb*. Aku langsung berpikir, oh ya bener juga yah. Selama ini, aku jarang banget refleksi ke kehidupanku, jarang seriusnya refleksiin hidup aku. Apa saja yang Tuhan sudah lakukan untuk aku? "Sebagian besar yang kamu minta udah SAYA kasih loh." terus, dilanjutin lagi : "Kamu inget kan, kalo berkat orang itu beda-beda? Berkat orang itu datengnya gak samaan?" hmmm, bener juga sih. Terus, mungkin saja, kita belum sanggup atau memang kita bukan talentanya di bidang yang kita iri dari orang lain. Tapi terkadang, kalo saya minta-minta terus, terus dikabulin, eh taunya zonk "Nah, baru kan rasain? Makanya, aku gak mau kasi kamu dari dulu. Sekarang rasain deh." Aku cuma bisa "Hehe." Terus, seringnya Tuhan juga ngomong melalui suster aku yang sudah 20 tahun mengabdi, she's really like my long lost grandma! She's such a faithful friend to Him. Dia bilang "cici, semua itu ngantri. Doa-doa juga semua ngantri. Tuhan pasti udah taro antriannya, tinggal tunggu aja kapan dipanggilnya dan dikabulinnya." OH YAH! ITU SUPER MAKE SENSE! Tuhan tidak cuma mengurus 1 manusia buluk (red-saya), tapi bermiliar orang. Yang sopan dong, antri. hehehe.

Jadi, intinya itu. Seperti quotes quotes terkenal "Don't compare your life to anybody else." "Count YOUR blessings." (bukan ngitungin berkat orang lain, emang digaji?) "Kamu selalu ngitungin berkat orang lain, sampe berkat kamu aja kamu gak urusin. Gimana mau merasa cukup? Gimana mau selalu bersyukur? Gimana mau merasa puas dengan hidup kamu yang sekarang?" Iye, iye.. Makanya di tahun ini mau buat resolusinya semua yang merubah sikap. lebih detail nulis resolusinya bukan cuma "BE A BETTER SELF" aja, tapi gak tau apa yang mau di-better-in. Ya kan? Melihat berkat orang lain, boleh. Malah harus didukung dan ikut senang (siapa tau impian kamu malah menjadi nyata di orang lain, dan kamu sedikit kecipratan? God works in a strange way). Tapi jangan sampai berkat sendiri berserakan.

(*Sedikit cerita: jadi saya dari dulu suka banget sama LINE. Mau kerja disana, karena super cute. Duh. Eh singkat cerita, gak masuk kualifikasi. Bbrp tahun kemudian, temen saya dapet klien LINE dari kantor agency dia. Eh ayo apa? Aku suka dikasi goodies sm dia. Karena dia tau aku suka barang lucu. dan ternyata, dia kerjaannya harus nyeketch nyeketch gitu, which aku GAK BISA TOTAL!)

Sebenernya banyak sih PM's thoughts ini. Cuma yang satu ini pertama yah, udah di 'dumel' in terus suruh post. Heehehe. Oh guys, buat yang mau nanya : God didn't talk to me in personal like I could hear HIS voice. I would be hardly PEE ON MY PANTS! Well, I'm not that good, pure, saint enuf to experience it yet. But, it somehow my inner self that talked to me (it's the spirit of Him). Or through those whom I care or care to me. 

Semoga bisa menjadi berkat yah post ini. Good Nite! See You!


xoxo,
Janice

Sunday, December 31, 2017

MY GRATITUDE

Thank you for those who makes this life interesting

Thank you for those who accept my awkward & weird personality
Thank you for those who accept my unusual actions when socializing
Thank you for those who likes me when I think there will be no one
Thank you for those who loves me from a distance
Thank you for those who keep pressuring me to do this and that for this go-where-the-wind flows human
Thank you for those who teaches me to have an elastic heart
Thank you for those who keep telling me to bring my meal every morning via a post it
Thank you for those who turns off my light every morning
Thank you for those who sent me to the public transport
Thank you for those who let me become what I want to be
Thank you for those who accept whatever my score is, as long as I pass the grade in my studies
Thank you for those who sent me to my office
Thank you for those who say Hi to me
Thank you for those who appreciates my helps
Thank you for those who see or not see my smallest, generous actions
Thank you for those who still tries to talk to me when I’m not the one who opens a convo
Thank you for those who silently hates or judging me
Thank you for those who still wants to arguing with me on chat in office hour
Thank you for those who makes me feel I’m super kind
Thank you for those who makes me feel invisible
Thank you for those which there when I’m needed
Thank you for those whose there when they needed me
Thank you for those who keep telling me that I’m so mommy-ish, yes I am
Thank you for those who doesn’t put a hard feeling with my words
Thank you for those who listen to all my random talks, random rants
Thank you for those who keep reminding me that God is real
Thank you for those who understands my hobbies
Thank you for those who understands my mood swings on period cycle
Thank you for those who breaks my heart
Thank you for those who do small jokes that sometimes hurts me, but it’s true somehow
Thank you for those who helps me run my life by giving me wages
Thank you for those who wants to hear my hedonism rants (I want this and that)
Thank you for those who cares for what I like
Thank you for those who keeps silent when needed
Thank you for those who keeps chatting random topics when I don’t know what topic should I pick on real convo
Thank you for those who don’t bother when I’m not sharing all my life diaries
Thank you for those who don’t make the situation more awkward
Thank you for those who bought from my small shops
Thank you for those who wants to get silly with me
Thank you for those who helps me & my sis run our business
Thank you for those who teach me how to love myself
Thank you for those who helps me achieve my goals
Thank you for those who makes me feel proud of myself
Thank you for those who makes me feel I’m still worth to be loved
Thank you for those who reminding me that I’m still their friend
Thank you for those who give me a hundred chances when I’m not that good enough
Thank you for those who makes me feel more of myself
Thank you for those who makes me feel more human

Thank you God, for becoming all of them

Thank you for always open your arms wide over and over and over again



xoxo,
Janice

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

TAKE YOUR TIME

MUA by Emi Kaneko ; Photography by unknown


Hello, everyone!

And Merry Christmas to you all. May the joy and love of Lord surrounds you always :)
How's your holiday? Thrilled enough? Take joy in every little thing you do.

I randomly want to scroll through Thought Catalog this afternoon to yeah, find some good article to read. Because it's been a while since the last I 'emptied' my books. And wanted to find about selfhelped article for this lonely soul. Hahahaha. Well, from those articles I'll sum up for you.

1. Improve yourself from every single aspects of your life
This is, undoubtedly true. It's the best time to improve yourself. Be a better person. 
Learn how to smile, be kind, make friends, learn new things, new hobbies, new skills, broad your mind so you're not being labeled as a boring one, read newspapers of political issues, business issues, environments, space, and whatever to broad your knowledge. Learn to do a deep convo instead of some useless small  talks. Be confident of yourself. Have integrity. Improve your personality. Pamper yourself a lil bit. Put on some makeup, take hair cut, buy good clothes, be as fine as you can be. Head up and open your chest. We all have our own ideal type, take courage to match those. 

2. Love and respect yourself. FIRST.
Love yourself doesn't mean being a narcissistic person. It means, that you maintain your health, get enough sleep, remove toxic peoples, love your job, know when to say no or yes, drink enough water, load up some positive thoughts, read books, go watch a movie, be kind, don't take things to hard, be independent, have some Yoga or morning run. All to get yourself a better and balanced life.

3. Do not LESSEN your worth
Never. Ever. There will be someone that will match your personality. That will match your worth.
All of your hard works, will be paid. A partner that requires you to be less and match their standard personality doesn't even worth your bag, huh. Unless you want to do so. Then, I said freewill is given to you. 

4. Travel
Travelling solo is everyone's dream. If you really mean it, travelling will do a worth favor for you. From travelling, you can learn so many new perspectives of how this world is mad and find what you need to do, learn from all of the people around you, bad, good. The best time to have a self introspection, to have an enlightenment, to find a turning point of your life.

5. Always do a question start from "Am I?" instead of blaming people
Always. Questioned yourself first "Why everyone doesn't like me?" "Why I don't enjoy my job?" "What can I do to make more money?" instead of blaming people for what was done to us.

6. Remember. HE got a weird calculations of time
If it's not His time yet. It will not come to us. And if it's come to us, than it's not from Him. Trusting God and put our faith isn't an easy task. Surrender all things, and let Him do the magic. 
Faith is believe of what you can't see, and see what you believe -St. Augustine

To those who seek the wonder of themselves, may the universe be with you. Let us all be bright as we have to be.

xoxo,
Janice

Sunday, October 1, 2017

How's Life?


Hi, all!

I know I’ve been abandoning this blog  for a long time. It’s not I’m too busy to write. But I kinda don’t have the subject to write plus I don’t have much photos to share with you. Before, I wanted this blog to be a some kind of ‘event related’ blog, turns out I don’t attend as many  event as I hope I would be. Though, I named it ‘journal’ which I can write everything I want like my daily life, ‘diary’ posts, or anything that related to journaling ended up I didn’t take proper photos for it. Ugh, so this is what they called writer's block.

Maybe, you guys can suggest me any kind of post you want to read from me? Oh, actually I write a journal and I decorate it which I update every week. Is it interesting for you to see? I would consider it.

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A little life update. It’s been 11 months since me & my sis opened up a cafĂ© which we named it “WICKED COLD” why? We make the ice cream with Liquid Nitrogen which make the ice cream colder than the other. Wicked, like the cold is so cold. Hope you get it ;) Well, the business is growing slow I don’t know if it’s because the market there isn’t high or what, because there were so many restos closed in the end. We give promos, adding some other menus than ice cream & frozen yogurt, and those. Maybe we’re a lil bit ambitious took 3 years straight rent and didn’t think about the pros and cons. Me & my sis found out that we two got a free personality which we hate doing the same thing, same routines and being at the same place for a long time. So, we end up boring going to the same place like everyday. We need a ‘constantly moving’ business like online business where we can go everywhere we want, still replying those messages, and sent them the day after. We realized that running cafes or restos business is such a BIG RESPONSIBILITY. But I’m glad, now I learned how people struggling their business, I know how drained those F&B’s workers, I learned to be more patient because there’s a lot of weird customers, and how much money they spent just to promote their business. I hope me & my sis can survived this field. HAHA. 

I thought, that there are some people that born to be in business field, but some aren’t. Building offline business needs patient, strategist brain, and an extrovert personality. It’s like passion. Now I don’t  think that I’m tht kind of person. Thank God, that we finally learned something from it.  But it’s good to ever experienced it, I thank my uncle a lot lot lot to spent such money for us. And God told me to ‘JUST DO YOUR BEST’ cause everything is already done and run. SO I HAVE TO!

Until next time, hope you’re still with me!


xoxo,
Janice

Friday, April 28, 2017

HOW TO FIGHT PROCRASTINATION


For procrastinators, there’s always today in another day. Raise your hands if you’re with me.

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So, here are my ultimate few tips for fighting it. Hope it helps J

[] Plan your activities

Having a planner helps me a lot. And also, I do decorate mine. Plus, making a key color really helps you to organize which activities/plans that has to be prioritized. The point is, when you know what you have to do each days, you’ll be get ready to do it. E.g. on Wednesday, I need to deep clean my bathroom, so on Tuesday, you’ll buy some things you need for cleaning up, or sleep earlier. Tips from me, plan every the end of the week.


[] We don’t know what will happens tomorrow

THIS.IS.IMPORTANT. We don’t know what will happen next. It might be there’s important event we need to attend or any force majeur we can’t avoid even sudden bad situations. If your plans really really important, please do it now, do it that day. E.g. Today you have to booked a flight for next week, but you ended up booked it the next day and it was already sold.


[] Mom’s yelling

THIS.IS.THE.SECOND.IMPORTANT who wants to hear Mom’s grumblings? No one wants. Count me in!


[] Do it today!

“Just do it”



#TBPMONTHLY


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xoxo,
Janice

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